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Because you were pretending and using his instincts during the full moon. He knew you're friends and that you care. But he was afraid to ask if you returned his feelings, because what if it was all just an act?

It paralyzed him all month after he did that scroll.

[He nods along.]

That does makes sense when it's a choice you can make. We Lost don't naturally have that kind of magic and we don't become what we are by choice...so I'd guess that dysphoria is pretty common for us.

If kangaroos had hoodie pockets, yeah.

I swear, I do not understand how his Noodle Brain works some days. He forced his friendship upon me for months while I was actively rejecting it with little sign of even acknowledging by refusals, but that is where he drew the line? Did he really expect me to think I could confess? I tried to kill him and take over the world multiple times! We were enemies and I was the bad guy! These are not usually charm points for a human raised hero!

[He sighs, rubbing at his face.]

Lost?

Do you...feel stimulated with the pocket?

That explains a lot, but almost nothing at all. But also, I can understand why it would be scary to confront the idea that someone you love doesn't feel that way and was doing it to protect you. It would hurt to be right.

I told him to try anyway...more than once before it was too late, but he couldn't work up the nerve.

Lost, what we call ourselves once we escape.

...you mean is it sensitive? Very...

My family were the villains and he was the hero. We ended up working together because other forces either threatened my family or the world and I'm not an idiot to say no to help when things matter to me. He and Dragon Girl took our first deliberate teammate as some kind of sign of I 'hero material' and then proceeded to declare me their friend on the regular until I gave into their blunt force affection.

Is having an owner such a common thing?

...hm. Well. That is definitely something to explore then. Having hot spots is normal, even outside the expected areas. Though you should try to find other areas, if you're comfortable.

Hero has a whole different meaning in my world, so I'm just going to say a helpful person. Villain's pretty much the same meaning so no notes there.

Though "Blunt-Force" is a little extreme. But maybe I set a clearer boundary day 1.

[Give him a minute to debate the proper response to that.]

In the sense of being Lost? It's not very common. In even getting to the point of being Lost, a lot more common. And for supernaturals in general...I honestly don't know.

...I...guess that makes sense. It feels a little silly, but might be good to know.

There's helpful and then there's saving the world more than once.

Oh, it was absolutely blunt-force. I was very clear in my rejection, so I don't know why he respected your boundaries. [Its because he saw through Red Son's tsundere bullshit.] His affection was a baseball bat for me.

So its a whole thing? Hm, well, something to get more into another time, I suppose.

To be honest?

Sometimes sex is just kind of silly. [His face is getting red.] You'll say and do things that in literally any other context would be terribly embarrassing if not outright mortifying. It is amazing what a difference the right mood and endorphins make.

And then there's hunting "monsters" and anything even remotely connected to them regardless of if they're a threat and keeping trophies to further their legend. Because that's what heroes do.

All I did was tell him I wasn't sure we were friends yet and he was moving too fast. He just made sure I knew he wanted to be friends and let me move at my pace while being...him.

There's not much to get into, not really. But that's why I warned MK to warn you all to avoid the fairy foods.

[He just makes a mental note, watching how red he can go.]

Sounds both nice and terrifying.

Oh, heroes do that back home too. Its only in more recent times where being a 'demon' didn't essentially allow any would be hero to attack you unchallenged by the masses.

Noodle Boy is...particularly kind compared to many heroes.

...maybe that was it. I had to allow some room to BE friends. Because he absolutely refused to listen to a wall.

Fairy food is always risky business.

....yes, it can be that. Its that whole vulnerability thing. There is an understanding that things may be like this, but you're choosing to do it anyway.

It's not an accepted practice, because ordinary humans aren't allowed to know about the supernaturals. Heroes specialize in Beasts specifically, despite, vampires, werewolves, demons, infernal demons, mages, Prometheans, and True Fae all exist. And the most prominent one sold his older twin brother to a True Fae so he could be an older brother to the replacement perfect younger twin...who he could control using "Lucky".

So very different and it feels like an insult to call MK a hero.

Anything Fae is risky business, even Lost.

Maybe one day I'll understand the feeling.

Ah, that kind of hero. You have my condolences. [Sometimes heroes are assholes.]

[Or they self destruct.]

[Sometimes Both.]

Maybe. And if you don't, that is also fine. Never do anything you don't want to with this, and if MK ever gets too handsy, hit him with a spray bottle.

I got off light. I feel more for the town he wiped out just to have a stage for his battle. It belonged to the brother he sold.

[No sometimes about it. All Heroes are assholes and they're everyone's problem. But this one definitely self-destructed and can't hurt anyone else.]

I'm not worried about that. We're barely past cuddling.

He really had no respect for family. Frankly I'm kind of insulted he pretended to be admirable.

Oh, he would never do anything on purpose. He can just be enthusiastic, but I think he probably does better with touch boundaries when you have actual touch issues and aren't just...

Angry like me.

He didn't, but he wasn't pretending to be admirable. He was being the same as any normal Hero, just also the main character of his Legend. The same as a Spirit of the Hunt has to hunt or fail.

It could also be a communication issue. He's never had a relationship before either, so it's a learning experience for all of us.

Heroes always think they're the main character. [Its something he's encountered a lot and he Hates It for many reasons.]

It could be. It does seem to be kind of a problem with his friends back home. Too used to getting the big stuff that things like 'weird visions' apparently just don't get mentioned when they should.

But it is also he shows his affection with touch so he'll just default to that if not told otherwise.

The only people who don't think they're the main character in their story are the people purposely made to feel otherwise. "Everyone is the hero of their own story" or something like that?

[He frowns and tilts his head.]

Weird visions?

I didn't have that problem with MK. He declared us friends, I said I needed time to decide that, and he's taken his cues from the fact that I telegraph my comfort or lack of...at least most of the time I do. I didn't even have to tell him I'd rather not be touched first. That might mean that something changed for him before he got here, or it might just be me...I dunno. I just know he feels strongly about wanting to do right by everyone he cares for, so I try to be transparent.

True, but not everyone goes out of their way to make people feel otherwise. But the worst 'main characters' will often do so.

A whole thing with Dragon Girl and a whole save the world nonsense thing.

I think it might just be you.

Or I just beg for people to touch me which would be weird.

But the friend thing would be a very hard line in the sand.

More...anyone do than I'd like to admit. That might be a thing specific to my universe though.

World-ending nonsense seems to be a thing.

Honestly, I'm hoping it's a communication thing. I don't want to be the only person he accepts an "I'm just not comfortable" from here. Being able to say you need time or space, or are figuring things out shouldn't be too much. It's not a denial after all.

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