That is true... [He doesn't have to share the footage if he thinks it's a bad idea. And it may be nice to have anyway. One of the modern things he's greatly appreciated is cameras. The ability to simply store an image at a moment's notice.]
[When he was a child, those things had to be painted or drawn. It had made memories easier to fade.]
[Taking more videos and pictures now would be good for later, regardless of what he shows his parents.]
It may. It would be good to have some videos with you as well. I imagine you would have no problem with father, but mother does have some difficulty with seeing me as an adult. [The difference of her seeing him grow up, versus his father who has to make the two versions of him one.] She's never pressured me to try and find a partner and while that could be just because we were too busy for such things, I can't discount the possibility she also didn't feel like giving me up just yet.
Not that I doubt your ability to charm her, but she is a force to be reckoned with when she decides to make someone work for it.
[ Saya tends to take pictures often as any cyclical amnesiac would, and she still keeps up the habit. So of course she thinks of it for others. ]
[ Just now though, despite this being her idea and despite that she usually enjoys talking about Red Son's parents in anticipation of meeting them, the thought is making her spiral into negativity. And the last time she did that she insulted Red Son and he snarled at her, so she's trying not to let that out. ]
[ That means she finds herself at a loss for what to say, and instead she buries her face against him and clings like he's the only thing keeping her anchored to this world. (It's his turn for a shift, she's been clinging similarly to Kantera, among others, for over a week now.) ]
I do mean it. You will charm her. Any protest she has would have nothing to do with you and entirely everything to do with her being protective of her child. You know, we only had each other for a long time, so its to be expected.
But it is something she has to accept, and at least she would have to work to find anything to actually criticize about you.
[ What he says has her years flowing again. For a long moment Saya only cries against him. She realizes she needs to say something, it's just that she's trying to moderate her worrisome spiraling so if doesn't splash on him. ]
[ Finally: ]
Right now I'm having trouble seeing a future where I get to have happiness like that.
I don't even know what that would look like. I only ever had fleeing moments of happiness before losing it all.
Being here is the closest I've had, and it feels so unstable. Maybe that's what all happiness feels like, I really wouldn't know.
I'm trying to have hope and be appreciative of what I still have. Not let the fear consume me. I don't want you or anyone else thinking that you don't mean enough to me to make my life here wonderful...
[What DOES happiness look like. He's still new to it himself. Only able to start finding it out after his father was freed. Any happiness he had as a child are faded memories and short regardless with how much time was stolen by the Fire.]
I know. Its all right to miss them. To hurt. That's normal.
How day, your happiness will be stable. You'll have plenty of time to learn it now.
[ She nods against his shoulder. The urge to be honest battling her urge to shove her feelings to the back of her mind. ]
I wish we could jump ahead to being there. So I could meet your parents and settle down. Not be worried that every time anyone is out of my sight that they've vanished entirely.
I find you very easy to love. Impossible not to, in fact.
[ She leans up to give him a quick kiss. ]
I like to think I was very patient with you when it came to figuring things out, what you wanted with me. Compared to how I am with everyone else, exceedingly patient. I wouldn't have done that if you weren't worth my while.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
[When he was a child, those things had to be painted or drawn. It had made memories easier to fade.]
[Taking more videos and pictures now would be good for later, regardless of what he shows his parents.]
It may. It would be good to have some videos with you as well. I imagine you would have no problem with father, but mother does have some difficulty with seeing me as an adult. [The difference of her seeing him grow up, versus his father who has to make the two versions of him one.] She's never pressured me to try and find a partner and while that could be just because we were too busy for such things, I can't discount the possibility she also didn't feel like giving me up just yet.
Not that I doubt your ability to charm her, but she is a force to be reckoned with when she decides to make someone work for it.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
[ Just now though, despite this being her idea and despite that she usually enjoys talking about Red Son's parents in anticipation of meeting them, the thought is making her spiral into negativity. And the last time she did that she insulted Red Son and he snarled at her, so she's trying not to let that out. ]
[ That means she finds herself at a loss for what to say, and instead she buries her face against him and clings like he's the only thing keeping her anchored to this world. (It's his turn for a shift, she's been clinging similarly to Kantera, among others, for over a week now.) ]
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
I do mean it. You will charm her. Any protest she has would have nothing to do with you and entirely everything to do with her being protective of her child. You know, we only had each other for a long time, so its to be expected.
But it is something she has to accept, and at least she would have to work to find anything to actually criticize about you.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
[ Finally: ]
Right now I'm having trouble seeing a future where I get to have happiness like that.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
.....I know. [He kisses the top of her head.] I know its hard.
But I still believe in your happy future. So you don't have to right now.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
Being here is the closest I've had, and it feels so unstable. Maybe that's what all happiness feels like, I really wouldn't know.
I'm trying to have hope and be appreciative of what I still have. Not let the fear consume me. I don't want you or anyone else thinking that you don't mean enough to me to make my life here wonderful...
I just miss them.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
I know. Its all right to miss them. To hurt. That's normal.
How day, your happiness will be stable. You'll have plenty of time to learn it now.
But its okay to be sad and miss them right now.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
I wish we could jump ahead to being there. So I could meet your parents and settle down. Not be worried that every time anyone is out of my sight that they've vanished entirely.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
Its terrible, we have to actually live through them to deal with them. [A sardonic tone.]
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
There's a lot that's not in my control, but I can promise that if I'm able, I'll be with you through all of it.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
I'll be here with you too. As long as you want me.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
'As long as I want you'? Do you truly think I'm going to tire of you and move on? [ Her words are gentle and her fingers are still in his hair. ]
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
Maybe? I don't think its going to happen for sure, but...
You possibly could.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
You think I'm that fickle? [ Her tone makes the words less an accusation than a mournful query. ]
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
Just...
I'm not always the easiest to person to love.
Re: several days after Wukong's revival
[ She leans up to give him a quick kiss. ]
I like to think I was very patient with you when it came to figuring things out, what you wanted with me. Compared to how I am with everyone else, exceedingly patient. I wouldn't have done that if you weren't worth my while.