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If it goes badly, I can swipe a bottle of that incredibly effective stuff from the vampire's wine cellar. [ He makes a point to know where these things are kept. ]

Too bad you can't ask for advice. I'll think good thoughts for your walls.

It might be warranted. We'll see where I'm at afterwards.

I already did. That's why Wukong is helping me with it.

It doesn't sound like you'll be in any place to ask her for it yourself if things go badly.

You know he's a terrible person to ask, don't you? Even if they do share whatever direct experiences you're referencing.

Probably not, no. Though honestly, I may just ask you to wreck me instead, if you're willing. Or MK. Depends how much I want emotions over just having my brain melt out my ears.

In this case, there's really no one else to ask where it doesn't get complicated by other unimportant things at best, or is more likely incomprehensible.

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Oh, I see what I'm good for.

I'm joking. Of course, whatever you need. Bring MK if it helps you.

I don't think I'd have the emotional capacity for both. Also, I wouldn't want to bring down MK. He'd be so excited for it, and being worried about me would distract him from taking full advantage. Or being taken full advantage of.

But that would be the thing. MK would be worried and I may not be in the place to deal with that directly so soon after. If I asked you not to worry and just leave me a mess, you're pretty good at that.

"Pretty" good? I have a mind to prove you dead wrong about that.

When's all this going down, so I know to not be elsewhere?

Fantastic then.

Early January. January 4th, I think. Recover from New Years, gives me time to check in with Wukong and Kantera, all that.

Better.

Her husband? Whatever this is sounds like a big deal. Maybe worthy of a combination of drinking and wrecking and the shibari rope.

We'll see where I'm at. I'll definitely need something at some point. It's a lot of me trying to be emotionally competent and that mileage can vary wildly.

You'll make it work. Nothing dredges up your last reserves of coping like someone you love needing you.

And if you need to fall apart after, I don't mind that either. [ Less fun than sex, but he held Red Son through a breakdown before, he'll do it again if necessary. Better him than MK, this is not a situation where you go to your other partner for comfort. ]

True.

[There is a delay because its]

[Its so different having friends.]

Thank you. I appreciate it. Though likely its more just a need to get all the built up anxiety out that anything. Probably avoid wallowing in any potentially hurt feelings.

It is what it is. Trying to manage how you feel is a fool's errand, trust me. [ Not that he's not about to try. ]

True. At best I've ever managed was directing them for less damage.

It's just a thought. You won't know what you need until it's over, but I don't care if you need to get some things out. Finding people who won't take those particular feelings personally is hard, I know.

True. On both fronts.

Speaking of, how are you doing? Emotion wise, with Noodle Boy? You don't have to answer indepth or anything, just checking in.

[What with his anxieties.]

If I didn't want to answer I sure shouldn't have made a bet around it.

I'm not sure what you're talking about, though.

Probably.

The anxiety and all that? Any serious regrets?

I don't see what there is to regret.
It's just sex, not a big emotional thing.

You seemed worried about the closeness is all.

There's a reason I started here. It's a way to be closer that isn't as threatening. The things he said felt abundantly less weird with his dick in my throat or while he was basking in afterglow. [ He's not sure how that works, but it does. Something something hormones. ]

I'm making him a gift too, before you think I'm going to rely only on screwing around. Now that he said things in a sex context it's a tiny bit easier to think of them being said in other ones.

Fair. It is amazing how much easier things are to take in those circumstances. [Easier to let go of pride, dirty talk doesn't seem so cringeworthy, and emotions so much easier to take.]

That's a good next step. I'm sure he'll be over the moon.

I'm going to try and talk with Wukong after the Saya thing. I put that off too long as it is. There should be an attempt before the end of January.

If he isn't, I don't know what more I could do. It's a woven shadow scarf. It extends into a cloak, though it does take some practice to change the shape. So I'm going to offer to teach him. It's useful, both for sneaking around and for protection. It's a fickle thing, and not 100% certain since the shadows are always moving and changing, but often enough weapons will just miss their mark or get lost partway through the shadow.

You're sure you're ready? Don't make me regret putting you up to this.

[ He doesn't want Wukong more hurt than he is. Or Red Son, either. ]

[Oh, that's adorable.]

He's going to love that. And knowing he has that would probably do wonders for a lot of people's nerves. [There is full faith in MK's abilities, but that doesn't stop WORRY.]

I'm never sure with emotional vulnerability. Its hopefully still worth trying. At least I can't put my foot even further in my mouth than a few months ago when he was trying to decay my house.

[ Not adorable! It's just the best thing he could come up with. And he has to do this every damn year, plus perhaps for MK's birthday? Being close to anyone is for the birds. ]

He's probably going to like my agreeing to be his teacher more than the thing itself. It's just a scarf.

Well, if you fuck everything up I'll manage him. I'm used to that. I don't think you will, for the record.

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