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[ Macaque's tail curls readily around Red Son's once there's contact, all too eager for more of it. But when Red Son moves his hand towards his neck-- ]

...Red. [ Macaque's hand shakes as he appears to be debating whether to yank it away, like he doesn't trust himself to have it there. And then he exhales hard once Red Son makes his promise. ]

What are you doing to me? [ He curls forward, kissing Red Son hard again before he can answer. It's all -- exhilarating. Frightening. Vulnerable. And so, so wanted. ]

[He's going a lot. He knows he's doing a lot. He's doing a lot to his own heart, but Macaque is hurting. He's hurting so much and his heart aches and he wants to banish that hurt however he can.]

[The dangerous part is how he means every word of it.]

[He keeps a hand on Macaque's cheek, a gentle tracing of his thumb over the scar, as he kisses back. Invites Macaque back in to kiss as hard as he wants, to take and have as much as his battered heart can take right now.]

[ Macaque is still shaking just a little as he kisses Red Son, gently holding the back of his neck to keep him close, gently thumbing along the scar as if it were an ink he could rub away. ]

Don't take it back. [ His voice is a whisper but it sounds like pleading all the same. ] I can't do it again.

I'm not. I'm not going to take it back. [Murmured against his lips, shivering as he feels the thumb over the scar, but he doesn't shift away in the slightest.]

You saw the vision, remember? I want you there. [A gentle, careful petting of his hair, tail tightening with his.] I want you to have a safe place to exist. I want to be apart of that.

Edited 2024-02-16 07:01 (UTC)

[ He doesn't want to think about that vision because he was laying against Wukong and he was with MK's children and that reality doesn't exist anymore. MK said he was done with him, doesn't need him anymore. And he never had WUkong to even have him be done, there was nothing to be done with and-- ]

[ Macaque breaks the kiss and rests his forehead against Red Son's. ] What are you doing to me?

[ This time he watches Red Son with one seeing eye and one blind one, this time he wants an answer. ]

[Red Son has many wants, but while Macaque was with Wukong and MK's children, he was also in Red Son's home. The place where he wanted his people to be. To have them close.]

[He's panting softly after the kiss, hands still gentle as they touch Macaque.]

...being honest. [Because he is.]

[He knows Macaque wants to hear it. That he wants the comfort. That he needs someone to stay.]

[But he's not insincere. He wants to do all that. Be all that.]

Inviting you to take what you want.

[ Macaque shakes his head in a way barely perceptible, it's felt more than seen. ]

I don't know what I want.

[ That admission, above all, is telling. It wasn't long ago that he knew what he wanted: Wukong, and that was all. ]

How it it that you're offering it to me anyway? [ Whatever he wants that is unknowable at present, Red Son is offering it freely, and Macaque believes him despite how that makes him feel raw and exposed. ]

Because you deserve it.

[He...can't blame him on that front. It wasn't so long ago that Red Son had no idea what he wanted. Not until Saya came in and asked him and then pushed him to actually figure it out.]

[But it just makes him feel all the more determined to offer it anyway.]

I want to make you happy. If its something I can give, I want to. [He leans in again, the kiss this time more chaste, and tender.]

[ Macaque kisses back with a softness and vulnerability that many would doubt even existed. Sometimes Macaque doubts its existence himself. ]

You do make me happy. [ The words are so plaintive that it's impossible to doubt their sincerity. ]

But... I don't make MK happy. And you love him, and he needs you, and I--

[ He can't have a place in a picture like that. ]

[Red Son's hands move up, cupping his ears gently, as if to make it extra clear what he's going to say.]

You and MK are going to figure it out. [Firm. Resolute. It'll probably be messy and painful and hard, but its not the first time things have been messy and painful and hard, and he believes in MK's stubbornness to figure out how to connect properly. He just needs to stop being an idiot. And he knows Macaque still loves him]

You are staying in my life. I'll drag you back if you try to run off, don't think I won't. Everytime until you can tell me sincerely and earnestly you don't want to see me anymore.

But... [He leans in, kisses under his blind eye.] I don't think you will.

[ He closes his eyes when Red Son kisses below his blind one. Then he shakes his head. ]

I couldn't. [ Even as precarious as this feels, like a flyaway leaf that will soon be nothing but crunch beneath a boot, Macaque would never say that. ]

[ He kisses Red Son again, gently. ] I just... don't want to hurt you.

You're not. [Another gentle kiss.] And if you do, we'll figure it out.

[His hands move down, taking his hands in his own. Leading them to his neck again.]

I let you put magic on me the other day. Doesn't matter the item itself couldn't do magic things, it was still something magical.

I let you. Put it. On me.

[ Macaque absolutely hates the way his hands look against Red Son's neck. He gets the point of the exercise, and it's touching in ways large and small and all frightening, but he doesn't trust himself. Not after what he did to Wukong, or what he said to MK earlier. ]

[ That said, he doesn't move them. Simply rests them there, without fighting it. Exhaling long and slow. Trusting someone with his heart was the equivalent of magic around his neck, the analogy rings true. And yet it feels so precarious. ]

It looked amazing on you. [ That's all he can think to say for the moment. ]

It was a beautiful piece.

[He closes his eyes, hands resting on top of Macaque's, not holding them or hindering them, just resting, letting himself take several deep breaths. Considering for several long moments.]

Can you open a portal beside my nightstand?

You deserve a beautiful piece.

[ Macaque's hands remain where they are, despite his reluctance. Gentle and soft, not even a hint of pressure. And he opens the portal as requested. ]

[Red Son reaches through the portal, feeling around until he feels the box. Pulling it through, the box being the same one Macaque had given with the choker.]

[He opens it.]

Put it on.

[ Macaque's a little off balance here, wondering why this is a point that needs to be made again, but he does as requested, gently fastening the clasp. ]

[There is a shuddering breath as he does. He closes the box, and then is going to press it into Macaque's hand.]

You are going to doubt it. That I'll stay. I know you will, because its too big of a thing for you to fully believe now.

I know it, and that's okay.

So I want you to keep this. To hold onto the choker. And when you need the reminder, you put it on me again.

If there is ever a moment I was going to run, it would be then. If I don't, then you can be sure that I'll stay until you need to remind yourself again.

And I already know if I want you to put it on, I can ask. I know it won't ever be out of your reach.

Edited 2024-02-16 08:46 (UTC)

[ Macaque glances down as the box is suddenly in his hand. He listens as Red Son's words sink in, that he wants to demonstrate that he'll keep his promise. It's-- ]

[ Overwhelming, honestly. ]

You wouldn't rather keep it? [ It feels a bit wrong to hang onto a gift he made for Red Son. ]

I would.

[It is a beautiful piece.]

When you don't feel the need to put the choker on me as a reminder for a year, you can give me back the box.

[Not a wholly outrageous standard. His hurt runs deep, after all, and who can say when it'll fully be gone.]

[But being able to go with only doing it once a year isn't such an unreasonable idea, especially with their immortality.]

You can freely put it on me just because you think I look pretty though. I trust you to be honest with yourself as to the reasons.

Edited 2024-02-16 08:57 (UTC)

[ He offers a little, wan smile. ]

If I put it on you every time I think you'll look pretty, you'll always be wearing the thing and then where will we be?

When you want me to look pretty in it specifically.

[He leans in, kissing under his eye again, moving to nuzzle under his ear.] Sometimes it's nice to see the thing you made being worn.

And sometimes you just need the physical reminder that I'm not leaving.

I'll have to make you something else to wear, then, in lieu of the choker. [ He's not about to take his gift back and not replace it, even if it is for a good reason. ]

[ He inclines his head so Red Son can get under his ear more readily, and sighs with near-wistfulness. ]

I'm glad you said that, and you clearly mean it, but it feels so big. Bigger than that ideal future dream.

[ That was familial feeling, and this... he doesn't know. Can't put his drunken finger on it. ]

Why is the feeling so different?

If you want. I'll probably ask to wear it sometimes as well, especially when I'm with you.

[She keeps up the gentle affection. Light kisses and nuzzles, the other hand resting on his back, the other hand gently rubbing his opposite ears.]

Might be because you're drunk.

Might be because it feels more real. A physical reminder.

Hmm... [ He considers this. And would shake his head, but he quite likes what she's doing and definitely doesn't want to interrupt. He strokes through her hair while he's thinking, fingertip tracing the shell of her ear and down the back of her neck. ]

Not that. I guess it's... between the other night and this, something shifted.

--Or maybe I'm drunk, I'll accept that answer. I get more mushy when I'm drunk and forget to keep the walls up.

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